Sabotage!

UGH.

I am not happy with myself right now.  I had a good low carb day yesterday and then today I fell off the wagon and into a kiddie pool of that boy scout caramel corn.

Now I could make some good excuses - that I forgot to pack a lunch, that caramel corn IS THE FUCKING DEVIL, but here's the reality - I fucked up.  And I suspect it's far less about packing a lunch than it is about my commitment wavering. That I lost 13 pounds and all of a sudden I decided I needed to eat half my body weight in popcorn.  Holy WTF!

Why do I do this shit???

Day of Debauchery

Had a bit of a disruption to my eating and dog-training over the weekend, as my sister was in town.  Deciding it was easier to just eat like a normal person rather than get interrogated by my sister, I decided that one day off plan would be ok.  I didn't go crazy, brunch at a nice restaurant where I ate a beignet and some potatoes, a sorbet mid-day, and Thai food for dinner.

The dog, for her part, learned she could get away with a lot more too. My sister let her sleep in the bed, and the dog quickly figured out she could ignore my commands and go snuggle with my sister. So now good cop is gone, and she's stuck with bad cop.  She knows - after one attempt to jump on the couch she was reminded of who's the boss around here.

So we're back to our best behavior today - me in eating right and exercising, and the dog in following the rules.

It's Columbus Day, which I just love as a Federal employee, so I've got the day off.  The dog and I have some long walks planned, and I have lots of cleaning to do.

I've also decided to hire a cleaning service after I get some stuff put away.  I feel better and more in control when my home is clean, but I despise cleaning.  To me it's worth the cost to have someone else do it.  Is it shameful for a young, single woman to have to hire people to clean her house? Perhaps. Do I care? Not really.

Say Hello To My Little Friend

So I haven't posted in a little while because there has been a BIG change in my life.  Here she is:

This is Amy, my new dog.  I adopted her from a rescue last week and we've been having a grand time.  I've been taking her on really long walks (5-6 miles a day) which is great for both of us.  It's a lot easier to get out there when I have such a charming buddy to exercise with.  I got her a harness to stop her puling, and we've been exploring some great new walking routes.  

I'm pretty sore from all the walking - schlepping around 80+ pounds of extra weight is definitely no easy thing.  But I'm going to keep at it for both of us. It also inspires me to keep working on losing, because I don't want to be so out of shape. I want Amy and I to have years of great outdoor adventures.

I look forward to our walks so much - at work I'm planning out that evening's adventure and she's so excited when I come home.  I've never had a dog before, but I just love her to death. She's a total sweetheart with lots of personality.

In other news, I'm down almost 13 pounds!! I weighed 215.6 this morning.  I was stuck around 222-223 for a few weeks and then all of a sudden, movement!  I've been sticking with low-carb this week and keeping an eye on calories.

So I'm very, very happy right now! This weekend is a long weekend (Columbus day is one of the best things about being a federal employee) and the weather is gorgeous so I'm hoping for lots of Amy time.